I wasn’t going to sit down and write a post this morning. My ugly creations are scattered across the main page and it seemed silly to add another one. Then I thought screw that I feel like writing and if the rest of the crew wants to contain me. They can knock me down a peg or two with they’re posts. So lets get in to the meat of this beast shall we.

I can’t seem to give up on Darksiders. The game does a lot of things that annoy me a great deal. Normally when a game stops being fun, I stop playing the bloody thing. For some reason I can’t seem to give up on the title even though there is no earthly reason for me not too. A chunk I ran across last night may finally just end it all. My plan is to give it one more shot some time today and see what happens. My time with this game does bring up an interesting point about video games. This is one of those games that I don’t find enjoyment in, but I can see that it’s a good game. I get the sense that to many times gamers run across games that frustrate them they call it shit, rather than admit it’s just not for them. Far easier to heap abuse on a game, than admit you suck at it. Oh and for the record I suck at Darksiders, the battle has been to find enough fun in between moments of frustration.

Let’s go with some more video game hilarity. The crew around Wonderpod has debated the digital versus hard copy thing nearly to death. Last night digital saved the day for me. During our RPG discussion on the now mythic episode 50 I mentioned Knights of The Old Republic. I played it back in 2003 and loved it. Once Darksiders annoyed me enough, I started scrounging through my PC collection for it. Might as well give it a play through it again. Problem was the second good damn disc had become scratched at some point. I really wanted to play the game and was not happy. This is one problem with having hard copies, they can become damaged. Luckily, I found the game on Steam for ten bucks. So now I have re entered the Star Wars universe. Between it and a couple others, I should stay busy until HomeFront drops.

I’ve been struggling with how I conduct myself here on Wonderpod-Online. I live by one simple rule in my own life, get the job done right and in the quickest manner possible. There is no time for personal agendas or ego boosting. If any of that comes as by product of getting the job done then fine. It just better not get in the way of getting work done. Getting the job done also means stepping aside when someone more skilled than you comes a long. I can’t even count the amount of time’s I swallowed my pride and got the hell out of the way. Same go for replacing other people on projects. It’s never personal, it’s always about business for me. I have worked with some of my best friends and I have worked bastards who would rather punch me. As long as they got the skills, I don’t care. I see no sense in letting my personal feelings get in the way. That doesn’t mean people don’t take it personal at times. Never matters to me, getting the job done has no place for pride or vanity in my world. Granted the non-Internet world I roam tends to be a lot more rough and tumble then you would think. Hard work and never quit are highly valued traits. The internet side of my life doesn’t seem to mesh well with that frame of mind.

I am not sure if I am going soft or just can’t conduct business the same way.  People are far more touchy and take shit far more personal. Maybe I am wrong, but it seems to be the vibe I feel a good deal of the time. It makes me alter my approach to doing things in conjunction with G and Patman. In fact I can tell you, I would struggle far worse if they weren’t here. Anyone can be replaced, myself included. There are writers and pod casters who are better at the game than I am. Some day I can see myself just sitting back and letting talented kids populate Wonderpod and Wonderpod-Online. It would make me smile. Still there has to be a point where you have to put your foot down and change shit. When things don’t work there can be no other way can there? I suppose like everything else I just need to find the balance between nice guy and asshole in the Internet realm. Finding that balance is the struggle and it is testing my patience. I just want this site to be the best it can possibly be. If that means I upset a few apple carts a long the way so be it. I know I feel a better after spitting that on to a page.

That is why this news post will never change. I need an outlet, one where I don’t have to waste a single persons time. In this format you the fine reader can chose to read or not read. It’s a beautiful thing, in my mind. At the end of the day I am human and would love to have an audience who enjoys what I do. It is not the reason I write and never will be. I write because I have something to say or need to vent something before I explode. If someone else enjoys it then awesome. That is always a damn good thing. I love every person that enjoys our antics, but I will be here whether we get a thousand page views an hour or one page view a day.